She burst into tears when came to the verge of being cheated. That faith and her concealed love was hanging under the sky of beguilers. She was puzzled in her own queries, every moment seeking for the answers to the questions that were nothing but a set of meaningless words. She was deceived.
The memories of being with her beloved used to bring a smile on her face, yet turning into a horrible pain just after moments. The storm inside her of agony and sorrow brought a flood of tears from those beautiful eyes.
She was at pace to ruin herself and was miles away from the worldly life around. She was mesmerized for his love to the extent that thinking against him became a sin for her. She was struggling in the war between her heart and mind.
Days passed on with the pain not gone but grown in tons. She blamed herself and searched for the faults in her and eventually started to quarrel with no one but God. Sitting in front of Him for hours asking for his return and ending up cursing herself. It continued for days but God is God. Gradually she became close to God, sharing every detail with Him. She didn’t know she was around the corner of the peace she desired for a long time.
One fine evening, moving towards the opened window she looked above the sky. That blue sky was huge and she felt herself a tiny flesh of blood. She took a deep breath and rushed towards the mirror beside her bed. Her eyes paused while she was moving her hands all over her face realizing that it was she who had destroyed her heart and soul. She screamed out loud looking at herself and whispered “I am Sorry” to herself. At that moment her heart was not filled with hatred but the love for herself and her connection with God.
Looking over the sky after so long gave her just a thought that how could anything be that much more beautiful than this feeling right now. She could feel God around her, close to her, watching her and smiling at her. Spending nights talking about her beloved to God did wonders, but not by getting her love back instead of getting her true self back. She found peace, she found herself.
You can only live the beautiful moments by leaving the worst ones.
